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[01 Feb 2005|03:13pm] |
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[06 Jan 2005|03:58pm] |
whoop whoop
god im an update whore
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[03 Jan 2005|06:17pm] |
Lets pretend tonight is going to be like the rest <3
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lets love.
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[30 Dec 2004|06:09pm] |
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From now on these are going to be friends only. cause i cant stand some people and i dont want them to read this. its personal.
Locked, comment, add me, then maybe i'll add you back
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[08 Dec 2004|06:45pm] |
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i forgot to tell you, for hunukah i got a cool drunset clock, and when the alarm goes off, it does this coolio beat and someother thingy. it's hot! if i was a girl drumset i would have joyice sex with it.
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| to megan dearest |
[07 Dec 2004|06:40pm] |
so yeah i've decided that i can't have a life. cause i'mn trying to keep the friends that i have.
if that makes any sence.
yeah well my life is full of bullshit
to megan jean...
things you can help me with.
+fred
+getting over fred
+moving on
+killing fred [not literally]
+moving on and loving john
+++++++++ BECOMING BETTER FRIENDS WITH YOU!
<33 john
later-
emma louise
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[07 Dec 2004|06:03pm] |
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so yeah nothing really happened. i got my computer taken away from my last entry as you all know i'm failing science. i dont give a shit. i' still dont feel well
friday night- hung out with john <3 will becki ashley ryan
fun! john asked me out. of course i said yes
saturday.. borring. spent my day talking on the phone with ashley, which isnt so boring. then later i went to the show, with ashley. fuuuuun :)
sunday. had the paulls and mr fitstori over. ehh. okay me and erica were in stoner world. then we found footage of kid. R.I.P
monday- took a shower, yet again cried, fell fell asleep in shower, went to erins'. got more bi-polar testing. I HAVE IT !
today took a nap. got bitched. at have a headache. i'm sneeking online. and i'm talking to megan. she makes me happy
GO MEGAN AND JOEY <3
<33 emma
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[30 Nov 2004|04:45pm] |
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so yeah, when my dad came home, i was already in a bad mood. so what does he have to do? make it worse.
"Hey emma guess who called me today?"
"Who"
"Your science teacher, you're failing science"
--------good one cheif.
i fliped out on him and then he wouldn't let me shower?
but i did anyway.
"I swear i'm going to kill myself."
"Is that a threat to yourself?"
"No, it's a promise."
::slams door and turns on shower::
i cried in the shower, thought about cutting alot. god i hate my life.
and as soon as i thought i was done with fred. haha not. i thought things were going to turn around. guess not.
now i do wih that i did that thing today.
it would have made things easier for me.
GOD!
-emma louise
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[29 Nov 2004|05:49pm] |
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i wrote a long entry, yet is dissapeared.
it talked about how i should have gotten a rape kit, then sewed fred for all the dimes he has.
then it talked about how much i love my friends, and how i was looking for my real friends and i think i have found them. <33 i love you guys...
later.
emmmmma louise
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| let's call this entry "My whoreish mother" |
[29 Nov 2004|03:07pm] |
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my mom is too damn lazy to drive me over.. she's in the
"yeah, i'm such a lazy bum that i don't want to do anything but mope, emma has freind's and i don't" type of mood. gurr. or she's in the
"i'm such a fat poop head that i can't stand myself so i'll take it out on emma."
..orrrrr
"I'm such a whore, i'll fuck them when i come over, but i dont want to go to jail for sagitory rape.
yeah... gurrrrrr!!
track starts tomorrow. i'm actually going to get skinny! :]
aren't you fart faces not happy for me. cause i'll be skinnier and you won't!
haha lazy asses.
yepp. it's kinda like that.
<333emma louise
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| it's real for me, it should be real for you too |
[28 Nov 2004|07:35pm] |
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yeah, so i'm deciding to give up all freaking hope on fred and moving on. cause honestly i can't afford to do that to me or my body anymore [ taylor understands ] he is an asshole, and i don't know if he'll ever change. honestly, i don't think he will. when he changes is the day i die. which means he'll die before i do because of A. skateboarding accedent. B. my cousin slaughtering him C. me running him over in a 4 x 4 or D. him dieing from all that weed he does. he does scare me now. i know / don't know why. but at the same time i want to go up to him and spit in his face [again] and tell him to shove it. i think this will be the beginning of a new end for me and him. and i hope i'll be happier without him. even though he was my everything and all. today is one year and seven months since yeah... see, there are many problems going on in my life, and i don't need his shit to be on me too. i shall shit on him!! :]
i don't know if life can take me anymore, i hope people will give me second chances, the ones i've hurt along the way, and the ones i've brought down. i think that i brought my friends down too. cause they were much happier till they met me : / i don't know.. am i talking crazy here or something?
wow i love taylor baby.. she's awesome and can understand me.. <3 thanks love.
yes i must leave you with something.
i don't like fred. he is the only one i can hate [besides pun]
later- emma louise
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now i have more time to write in depth of what happened this weekend.
yeah so we all knnow i went over to my cousins, i really didn't see him.. i got sick [again]
i've had shitty diarea since thanksgiving.. fuck you!!
band dance was the day before that, taylor and paul are cute. megan was my date. ooooh baby.
yeah so i went to a friggen party for my step-aunt. i got paid 2 bucks for dancing the macarana. then i went to the house, and went onto their computer. twas fun, except when i was talking to taylor, there was a cat sounding like it was dieing. and i was al,one in that house with my brother.. i swear he popped out of no where.
taylor.. i think the cat is better.. i think it may have had to shit outside or something.
then today.. woke up and there was a zillion people already at the house. we left at 9:30 and i didn't get home till 5:33 today. gurrrrrr..
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yeah.. i'm over my cousins house is mass.
band dance was awesome, i'm glad i went.
laterness.
emma
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| MEGAN! |
[26 Nov 2004|07:15pm] |
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it turns out megan is still my date :) yess
i smell my brother dioderent... it smells yucky.
i went over megans it was fun, first we went to 7 11 then we knocked at katrina's, we woke her mom. she was at the mall. then we went back to her house. we played life and she did my makeup then did hers <3 thanks love. we talked about stuffies. yesss
i love that woman. we had many giggles.
yesss. well today overall was pretty good.
ben lectures alot. boo!
later-
emma
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[26 Nov 2004|10:21am] |
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1. Smoked? yes
2. Been Drunk as hell? yes
3. Screwed someone of the opposite sex? yes
4. Screwed someone of the same sex? no
5. Shoplifted? yes
6. Lied? yes
7. Betrayed a friend? no
8. Been to jail? yes
9. Smoked weed? yes
10. Done LSD? yes
11. Done any other illegal drug? yes
12. Given oral sex? yes
13. Received oral sex? yes
14. Screwed something not of the human race? no
15. Screwed something not alive? no
16. Cheated on someone? yes
17. Used someone? yes
18. Paid someone for sex? no
19. Been paid for sex? no
20. Played strip poker? yes
21. Skipped school? yes
22. Skipped school to get high/drunk? yes
23. Danced naked? yes
24. Danced naked in public? yes
25. Flashed someone? yes
26. Mooned someone? yes
27. Kissed someone? yes
28. Kissed someone of the same sex? no
29. Held hands? yes
30. Hugged someone? yes
31. French kissed? yes
32. Had sexual fantasies? yes
33. Had gay/lesbian fantasies? no
34. Stolen money? yes
35. Stolen money from family? yes
36. Stolen drugs from family? yes
37. Been convicted of a crime? no
38. Dated someone because you heard they were 'easy'? no
39. Had someone date you because they thought you were 'easy'? yes
40. Been called a whore? yes all the fucking time
41. Been called a bitch? yes
42. watched porn? yes
43. Taped porn? no comment
44. Watched porn you taped? no comment
45. Kissed someone in a moving vehicle? yes
46. Screwed someone in a moving vehicle? no
47. Used sex 'toys'? no
48. Tried to kill yourself? yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes
49. Tried to kill someone else? no
50. Told someone you hated them? yes
51. Told someone you loved them and didn't mean it? yes
whoa... i'm bad..
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[25 Nov 2004|05:27pm] |
You Are the Loyalist |
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You have strong relationships and are intensely loyal.
People find you easy to love and care for.
You like your world to be stable and secure, no surprises.
You're cautious. You prefer your inner circle to the outside world.
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